Dissatisfied

As many of you know, I work at DeKalb middle school. The past few days the county has gone through quite a bit. A junior passed away due to health issues on Monday. On Tuesday, many of you might've also saw the news that we were on a modified lockdown. This was simply because a former student was missing and it was told that he had a gun. Lo and behold, he wasn't even in the same county. Sadly, he was a threat to himself and not anyone else. He was found dead and that's all we know. Whether it was self harm or not, that hasn't been released.
But through that, there has been no judgement from me. What I found really crazy is how working in the schools how fast things travel.. And it's almost like they are playing telephone, because at the end of the day it's amazing the stories that come out of it. Where a girl dying of health issues, turns into, she was home all day and overdosed. Also, If you've seen the news, yesterday you'll see that a prisoner escaped from a dekalb sheriff. So what do people post? The sheriffs are so overweight, my gma can run faster. Really?! Why is it that whenever tragedy hits or mistakes happen, the first place to turn to is judgement or blame?! I'm seriously tired of it! Why can't we turn to God, or have grace??
The answer.. Because we are all dissatisfied. With ourselves. We lack the ability to be completely satisfied with ourselves. We get offensive, defensive and we take it out the way we think it should be. Why is it that we can never be content? There always has to be something wrong. Whether its that look in the mirror that screams "rough," or that losing weight has become about looks now then health and people will go extreme measures to become as thin as they can. I was reading a book, "the resolution for women" and I LOVED the excerpt I read!! It's about how I unsatisfied we truly can be :
"If you're single, you should have the security of marriage
If you're married, you should have the freedom of singleness
If you live in an apartment, you should own a home by now
If you own a home, it should be bigger than the one you already have.
Getting the message?
Your clothes should be from THIS vendor
Your appearance should look like THAT trend
Your kids should be more like THOSE kids
Your standard of success should be measured by THESE standards."

Can anyone argue that? I read it and I thought, that is pretty right on. I have prayed and tried very hard to be someone who is satisfied, but any woman will admit.. It's not easy.
Of course I have said that I want to be a Proverbs 31 woman and well.. I still don't know how to sew. :)
But what I have learned is exactly what Philippians 4:11 says.. "I have learned to be content in whatever circumstances I am"
I have an amazing husband that maybe without knowing, has guided me through a lot of it.
I was having a conversation with someone once and I said, my insecurities have decreased, my confidence has increased and my i find grace in so many areas of my life now. And the response I received back was simply, "ya well you're married." Friends, I have something great! I have accessed a strength and the ability to be confident and secure NOT because I am married, but because I chose to love who I am through Jesus Christ. I accessed this long before marriage, and in fact long before I was dating! That's a whole other blog though. :)
I used to dislike myself, and put myself in the wrong crowds. I used to party and I hated being single. But I came to a point in my life where that wasn't ok anymore. I learned what it meant to love myself, and I wouldn't never learned that if I didn't encounter the presence of God.
It wasn't about being married. There are a lot of married people that are insecure and lack confidence. Without God, we are nothing! We are NOTHING! God gives us a purpose, a hope and a future.

So why do we turn to negativity whenever something bad happens or something we don't agree with? If you don't agree with it, let it go. If something bad happens, wait for the answers. Turn to God!! There is no excuse for selfishness. The most unselfish act was God giving his son, Jesus Christ, to die for our sins, for our selfishness and he gave us GRACE.
So when you see a hurting person, a lonely person, a sick person, or one of those people who all they can do is complain and judge what are you going to do? Love. When you begin to love yourself, you will find it easier to love others.